i'm not exactly in the mood to write in my diary.
so here i landed up,
typing on the virtual one.
can't wait for the bonding camp.
can't wait for the bonding camp.
can't wait for the bonding camp.
can't wait for the bonding camp.
that's what i've been telling myself non-stop these few days.
i hope i really mean it.
i don't wanna see him,
then lose my mind.
'cos i don't think my brain will function well enough
to actually think of something to say.
hope i won't be stoned.
bonding camp sounds like great fun!
that's another thing i've been telling myself.
ohwell,
it's best to be optimistic.
i don't really like to speak about my troubles to my family.
not that i don't trust them or anything.
it's just that i don't think that they can relate to anything much.
so i just pour my feelings our here lo.
i'm just moody recently.
maybe it's the monthly mood swings.
i just realised that i have to pack for the bonding camp tomorrow.
i delayed my packing for too long.
arghs.
homework.
&they're all math.
so that sucks big time.
as that definitely the subject that is not my favourite.
got back my results 2 days ago.
it was a huge improvement,
but according to my deputyhead,
sec1s and 2s have it easier.
when it comes to sec3,
hell arises.
not that exaggerating, i think.
i'm so damn sleepy,
but i can't sleep when i'm thinking of him,
so i think i'll just tire myself to sleep.
sometimes,
when people ask me why i like him,
i ask myself the same thing in return.
but i just reply that i went for his personality,
even though i'm not really sure.
hmm, we'll just have to see on monday.
i chose to stay overnight.
even though i hate how schools look when it's at night.
creepy, but there has to be a time when i face up to my fears.
although it sounds really childish.